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When it seems as thought our thoughts are not dissipating


Your becoming aware is actually doing the work. Think of a thought as firewood and awareness as fire. The firewood has a certain amount of strength in it. It has a burning capacity. It will burn out sooner or later. You just have to keep the fire burning, as in be aware, just as you have demonstrated your intention to be aware.
If the fire is strong, the wood will burn faster, if the wood is dry, the wood will burn faster. Here fire being strong is a metaphor for your awareness. 5 months gives you a certain amount of strength. If you had 5 years of practice, you would have burned through the thought faster. Similarly, if the thought is light or does not contain emotional charge or trauma, it burns away faster, but if a thought has weight or is emotionally charged or related to some repeated trauma, it will hold on for longer. You may not be able to overcome it in one session or even in multiple sessions. This does not mean that the fire is not burning or that the wood is not burning away. It is just a different kind of wood than you expected it to be.
I am taking a guess (please confirm if I am right), you start to question why the thought has not yet gone. It is a like an unwanted guest is making his way out the door, but you ask them ... why haven't you left as yet, and they turn around and discuss it for another hour. Instead, do your work. Focus on your awareness. Allow the thought time to dissipate. Be humble about what you can expect in 5 months. It is Okay if you have not yet experienced silence. You are making progress and practicing regularly and that is what matters.
Take Care and all the best.
Saurabh

Foot Note: It has always been hard to write my name below a quote. It used to feel a little pompous. However after more than 50 iterations of working on the logo for 'Be a Meditator', I got a message from my Art Teacher. She said that it takes a great deal of integrity to sign your name on something. It is a daring and honest act. I was taken aback by the implication but also know when I hear a truth. Because it shakes you up. And so with this one, I realized that I needed to sign my name and put it on the quote. Would love to hear thoughts on this subject from other artists. 

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